The good lord will take you away

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Driving me home. So happy huh? haha

posted by alienresident at 8:27 PM >0 comments

Weekend! ________________________________________________________________

Alright. I should so be studying now. But i just finished my Oscars piece and am so not in the mood to get anything else into my brain. My midterm is on tuesday and i havent studied for the entire weekend because of the church conference! So i am really behind. And the thing is, i actually like intercultural comm, so i dont mind studying for it. Anyway, the conclusion is that, i'll skip tons of classes tmr to study for my midterm. Prob head down to starbucks ALONE for some last minute cramming. The girls are studying together now, but i didnt want to join them, cause i cant write an article when people are around me doing different stuff! How the hell am i gonna become a journalist then? You think you get ya own nice huge office to write QUIETLY in your room Mavis?! haha.

Anyway, i just wanna blog about the conference. I felt in love with a kid today. GOsh she is so so so so cute. I just wanna hug her all day. Haha. Makes me wanna get married and get kids of my own straightaway. She's 3 and her name's kayrn. I forgot to bring my camera today! So i didnt take a picture with her. But i will definately get a picture of her before i head back to singapore. She's of thai blood, and her eyes are just like her mom's! HUGE! her lashes are longer than mine can?!

Oh yah, and i realised, kids really do love my cereal. I brought my cereal to church today because i didnt get enough time for breakfast. It's been three days of waking up at 9am, so you should know how much of a struggle it is for me. Especially on sat! Haiyo! And so i brought my cereal to church, was just eating when kayrn put her palm out towards me, demanding for one. Haha. And i gave her one and woaho! The entire children's church flocked towards me like ants to honey! Gosh. Haha. Now i know what to get kids for christmas. Hoho.

Anyway, the three days conference was basically talking about building a seed church. It's something which i havent really thought about because in CHC, our church is already so big. We're pass that stage of struggling to bring people in. But here, i am shown a totally new perspective whereby there's a lack in leaders, and whereby they are trying so hard to reach out and bring people into the church. So the conference was good because it led to to learn stuff i was never taught back home.

The people here have touched me deeply. You should look at the way they talk to people. Very sincere. We can just be hanging out at a smoothie joint, and they will meet some friends they havent seen, and they will go into deep conversations, sharing and stuff. I think their attitude touches people, and people do agree to come. They are a small church, without a great worship team, they do not even have members who have really good voice to lead. But no one is afraid, and people step up in faith to lead the church in praises. Their musical instrument may not be the best and of the highest quality but i am sure the music that comes out of it is a sweet sweet sound to the lord. The church may not be the biggest with the nicest seats, the pastor may not be the most eloquent who preaches the best, the people may not be dressed in suits and ties, the girls may not be in makeup and all, but the sincerity of the people, the way they are so willing to lead, so willing to help others, its incredible. I think they may be the best bunch of people i've known here. They pick me up everyweek for care group and service, they take turns to send me back even though they are already so tired by the end of the night. They ask me out to hang out, they pay for stuff for generously. No one is arguing over who didnt pay that extra dollar or two. Everyone is just so willing to bless if they could.

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oH Shit. This entry...i stopped for 2 hours because i just got off the phone! Wasted so much time! I need to study! relax..relax...grades dont matter right? I'm just an exchange student...right????

posted by alienresident at 5:20 PM >0 comments

I love my hair! ________________________________________________________________

Gosh. I love my hair. Haha. Not because i just rebonded it or colored it or permed it or anything. I just love it! haha. At least for now. I love the length, its just growing and growing. I love the color that i did before i left, its showing better now after all the washes, i love the volume, but thats gonna become too Va-boOOm in no time. So while its still nice, i am gonna announce that I LOVE MY HAIR! and my hair is freaking important to me! So dont think that this is a crap entry because it is important to me! haha. Alrighty.

This entire weekend, church conference. Three days, day and night. It's interesting sometimes when you are in a small church, its kinda like a camp and everybody knows everybody. It's so interactive. Loving it! Hope this weekend turns out great, and i'll be able to share what i've learnt! Till then, take care. I should sleep now because its four am and i have to wake up at nine for the conference! Tata.

posted by alienresident at 7:51 PM >0 comments

How precious is your health? ________________________________________________________________

Went out with a bunch of church people just now. Was pretty random. Pete called and asked if i was free to hang out, cause he got a day off from work. He finally went for his xray today for his limping leg. He's been limping since the first day i met him because of some injury he got from playing basketball. And finally he decided to go check it out since it's hurting him so bad his butt hurts. And he lost his six packs because he couldnt go to the gym! haha. hilarious. But hope everything turns out fine.

Our health really is important. Take care of yourself out there my friends. Health. The most important of the lot. I guess i've always thought so, but today after talking to B, i felt even stronger about that.

B is only 23 this year, and while we were waiting for the rest to get to the restaurant, she and i was just chatting. And we chatted about our romantic past, and she was telling me how she's ok with staying single for now. And so i was just asking her like why? And she told me because her health is a problem. B's bones are being eaten away everyday by some kinda virus or something. Her hip is getting so bad that she is limping. And she needs a hip replacement. Only thing is, people her age dont have such problems because weak bones are old people's problems. So there might be some complications about the hip replacement. And even if she does get a hip replacement like within these few yrs, she prob needs to get another one when she gets older to replace her already replaced hip. See? How bad is that? 23 and she has to deal with all these. But she is so strong. It's amazing. I didnt really know what to say because i never went through something like this myself. I couldnt tell her "everything is going to be ok" because i dont have the right to. But i really really do wish for her, that everything will be fine. She will be in my prayers.

So take care of your health mates. Stop that foolish smoking shit. Cause you are taking your own bloody life away. Stop that reckless driving, stop that reckless fooling around before you get any diseases. Yea. Value your health. And if you tell me you do, act like you do!

On a side note, thanks to my flu, i was gasping at the gym today. Gosh..so embarrasing. It's so hard to breathe when your nose is blocked!

posted by alienresident at 7:21 PM >0 comments

Moving ________________________________________________________________

This blog is going to move. Ask me for the new add on msn.

posted by alienresident at 11:29 AM >0 comments

I will bow before you only.. ________________________________________________________________

Lord you are gentle
You are so kind
I lay my life at your feet
Do what you will with me oh Lord

You have been faithful
Lord you are good
I give you all that I am
And ever hope to be
oh Lord...
Great and mighty
Lord you're holy
I will bow before you only
All the honor and all the glory
Is due your name
And I will give you praise
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posted by alienresident at 3:43 PM >0 comments

Stop running away. ________________________________________________________________

I am feeling all confused as i am writing this. I hate to say this, but all you do is run away. When anything or everything happens, you can never talk through it, you can never conclude something, all you do is leave halfway. I dont mind us screaming at each other, i dont mind us fighting, but i want to finish talking about it, and i want you to talk things through. Do not just go away as and when you wish. And the next time, just pretend nothing ever happened. Do not just hide everything inside, and hide all your hurt or disappointment in me inside. Let it all out. Scream at me. Dont keep it in, and leave. And force me to explode here. All alone in my room.

And everyday, things just build up. More and more remains unsettled. Till one day. You and I. We just explode together and die. Killing each other off, maybe cutting each other out of our lives. Not knowing what even happened?! It's ok to fight you know? It's normal for sisters to fight. We can work things through. We can hate each other, or you can be disappointed in me or whatever. But at least let me bleed knowing what went wrong. Do not slash me up, and leave. Do not let me slash you up without bandaging you up.

We will really rot so bad, inside, that nothing will ever be normal and healthy again. You know that? Hear me please. Dont hang up, dont cut off. Scream at me, scold me, let me vent my anger, and then we will be alright again. Because, we are sisters afterall. All i have is you, and all you have is me.

posted by alienresident at 3:06 PM >0 comments

Blame it on the rain. ________________________________________________________________

Not feeling good. Got caught in the rain again. Officially caught the flu bug. Mid term tmr..tons to study. Just wanna sleep. Pray for me.

posted by alienresident at 2:29 PM >0 comments

*Sniff sniff* ________________________________________________________________

Gosh. I am falling sick. Woke up this morning with a sore throat. And its a bad bad sign when i wake up with a sore throat because it's the start of a draggy sore throat, flu, fever season. Was in the rain like three times today. Super bad. Was cycling to starbucks when it started pouring, and i had to go draw money, so i was drenched, decided to go buy subway for lunch, so i was even more drenched, by the time i got to starbucks, i was shaking from the cold.

Had a toffenut frappe. YeP! They have toffeenut all year round here, i am so blardy happy lar. In singapore they only have in during christmas period! And it gets sold out so freaking fast can! And according to kevin, they get sold out so fast because all the partners drink so much of it. Shit you partners. Haha. Oh yah, as i was saying, i was freezing in starbucks, drinking my toffeenut frappe. Finally couldnt take it and decided to cycle back to my apartment to get a new sweater so i dont have to freeze in my wet one. Started raining on the way back to starbucks again...yes..and the cycle just repeats itself over and over again. The rain is horrible. So cold, so wet, such a mess. California aint supposed to be rainy man! Wassup?

Anyway, yes, i am feeling so tired and sick now. I think my body needs rest. But i slept till 12pm? Arghh..just pray for me people, i dont wanna fall sick here! NOOOOOOOOOO!

Btw, i think americans are so dumb sometimes. They really do think that american is the centre of the world. Nono, they think america is the world. So many of them haven travelled outside of America because they think that america is the world. What else is there to see besides other areas in US itself? Gosh. How ignorant can they get? Hope i didnt offend anyone.

Right, better go to bed..sniff sniff. -tissue pleaseeeeeee-

posted by alienresident at 5:14 PM >0 comments

A rainy sunday ________________________________________________________________

The feeling is all so familiar. Once again, it has hit me. It's been quite awhile though. But aint it nice? But sometimes you just hate it when you feel it, because it's so unsettling. But it's so exciting at the same time. It's like when you're on drugs? Its so addictive but it might not be good for you. But then again, it always bring joy. At least for a while.

Anyway, i realised that having an errily quiet roommate who is not here most of the time and who is annoying at times aint that bad afterall. Why? Because my friends have roommates who:

1) Are so messy, their half of the room looks like its just been swept by the tsunami.

2) Bring their boyfriends home, and have sex with their bf in their room when my friend was "sleeping". By they way, they peaked four times, if you know what i mean.

3) Bring drunkards home and wake up the entire apartment block in the middle of the night because he was hurling abuses at her.

4) Talk too much. Way toooooo much.

5) Stare at them while they are sleeping like some sick psycho. Scary!

Yep. So my irritatingly quiet roommate aint too bad after all huh? Hohoho. Congratulations mav!

Anyway he lent me an old handphone today. Yes, i finally have a hp! But i haven got my sim card yet. Just bidded for it on ebay. It's been two months since i last used a handphone! Gosh, i miss it like crazy. Miss smsing day and night, miss receiving calls, miss being able to just dial a number and chat when i am bored, miss receiving receiving crazy smses which are so damn bor liao. Haiyo! It was nice not having to stick to a handphone for awhile, afterall singaporeans do use their mobiles too damn much. But when you homeline die, and when you cant call anyone, and i mean ANYONE, it sucks! Because sometimes you cant wait to talk to someone! :) Alrighty, lets pray that my simcard will come soon! woohoo!

posted by alienresident at 2:53 PM >0 comments

*WARNING* Parental guidance needed. ________________________________________________________________

Oh yah, i forgot to blog about something very ironic and very disturbing.

Yesterday night, at around 2.30am, Chay drove us home after H's birthday celebration. It was raining and everyone was pretty much stoned after the long night. So we were just singing alone to chay's mp3s when meredith brook's bitch came on. And gosh. I LOVE that song. Like absolutely LOVE LOVE it. Drey and me used to sing it at the ktv all the time. And it was like my ktv hit can.

Anyway, the song ended nicely as we got to my apartment block. Me and A said our thanks to chay for the ride and hopped off the car, walking fast in the rain towards the lobby. I was hymming the tune of bitch when we suddenly heard this voice from above. From above not as in God from above. But nutcase standing on the first floor's window ledge from above. This black nutcase was either drunk or he really has nothing better to do. And bloody nutcase shouted :
" Hey bitch, hey bitches, look here. what are you going to do to me? Huh. I just called you a bitch."

Oh gosh. When i heard that i just wanted to throw my shoe at him. F**k u!!!!!!! Gosh. Sorry for the language, but that was SO SO SO SO rude?! Like what the hell did we do to offend him?! Gosh. I was so mad, trust me. But A was like " Let's just go, dont mess with them." Gosh. Argghhhh! I am so mad. Thinking about it now is making me mad even! Arghhh! Stupid nutcase. I really dont understand what you get out of insulting people. But please...mind your manners, and your own business. ARgghhh. Grosspieceofshit.

Anyway, it was only when i was fuming in my apartment, did i realise that so coincidentally i was humming to the tune of "bitch' when i was called a "bitch".

Bloody idiot. Patheticpaininthearse.

posted by alienresident at 6:50 PM >0 comments

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