The good lord will take you away

A little out of touch, a little insane? ________________________________________________________________

Am i an unrealistic person?

Am i in a world of my own?

Am i hoping for things seemingly impossible?

I really wonder.

Why do we always have to be the one listening to other people's success stories? Why do we have to be the one watching millionaires get interviewed on CNA and woo and ahh over their successes? Why do we always have to end it all saying in a resigned tone: " Haiya, how many people can actually become THAT successful?"

Why can't we be the one making the big bucks and smiling that million dollar smile?

Why do we always have to look at girls with fantastic figures and go green with envy? Why do we always think that we can never be those girls with those gorgeous figures? Why do we always end up sneering: " Haiya, with a figure like that, she must be bullemic or anorexic man!"

Why can't we be the gorgeous girls with the gorgeous body?

Why do we always look at happy couples and wonder when their flames will die off? Why do we think that passion can only last for that first few moments? Why do we have to resigned and agree with the world that things will only become monotonouse and dull after its honeymoon stage?

Why can't we keep the flame burning?

Maybe it's this world. Maybe it's all the negativity that's going around. Infiltrating our brain and washing away our positive spirit. Maybe we are all groomed to become part of the herd and to conform to the standards of the world. Because surely, if they all feel that way, shouldn't i feel that way too?

But why can't we be a voice, not an echo?

Jesus was a man whose life changed history not only because he was the son of God, but also because he was a unique voice, not an echo. He did not just perpetuate the way things were done.

He said, "Do it differently." He did not just remind others what had been said in the past. He said, " Behold, i show you a new way of doing things...things that have never been done before." - exercept from Jesus, Life coach.

Perhaps it's because i haven't fully immersed myself into the working world. Pehaps it's because i still have that childlike thinking in me. Perhaps some may even call it naive-vity.

But you know what? As long as i still have that glimmer of positiveness in me, i am gonna hang on to it for dear life. Because honestly, i don't care how other people end up becoming, i don't care if i do things differently. We've only got one life - Live it! And i mean to the best of it.

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Alot of things u don't need to know about me. ________________________________________________________________

Ok, so i got bored studying. Was msn-ing with a friend and she told me to perfect way to cure my boredom - do this silly thing below. And guess what? After completing the 'survey', now i am not only bored but tired too. Thanks man. haha.

LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE

Name: mavis
Birth date: 18 dec - yes that's a week before christmas!
Current status: i have someone by my side. :)
Eye Color: dark brown/black?
Hair Color: damn sure its black
Righty or Lefty: righty

LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE

Your heritage: both my parents are teochew! they say pure teochews are very pretty! haha
Your fears: Dying without making a name for myself
Your weakness: food!!! Especially dessert!
Your perfect pizza: thin crust, damn cheezy, lots of pepperoni and preferrably fat-free.

LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW:

Your thoughts first waking up: 5 more minutes lar..
Your bedtime: currently between 3-4am
Your most missed memory: drinking/laughing/chatting with the bunch at a motel in seattle and then everyone falling asleep in our dirty clothes after that.

LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK:

Pepsi or Coke: coke light! makes me BURP too!
McDonald's or Burger King: Mc!
Single or group dates: single
Adidas or Nike: the stripes all the way
Lipton Tea or Nestea: Lipton definately
Chocolate or vanilla: Hmm. Chocolate brownie with vanilla ice-cream!
Cappuccino or coffee: Capp for lazy afternoon, americano with the extra shot for a mugging day

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?

Smoke: Nope
Cuss: Nope
Take a shower: Errr...duh?!
Have a crush: Don't think so.
Think you've been in love: Yep.
Like(d) school: Yea.
Want to get married: Oh yeah!
Believe in yourself: Yep...because i believe God has his plans for me.
Think you're a health freak: No way. I love muffins and brownies and fries and big burgers. BUT i try not to eat them THAT much.

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH

Drank alcohol:Oh yeah.
Gone to the mall: Yep, and spent some money too. :(
Been on stage: Nope
Eaten Sushi: yea think so. with boon.
Been dumped: Thank God, no.
Gone skating: Never knew how to do it right.
Dyed your hair: Nope. Black is the new black!

LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER

Played a stripping game: In sec school! Thank god, someone backed out before i even had to take off my shoes.
Changed who you were to fit in: From time to time, u just gotta do that.

LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLD

Age your hoping to be married: around 27-28 i guess. But if i want 4 kids that might be too late?

LAYER NINE: IN A GUY

Best eye color: as long as it speaks to me, i don't care.
Best hair color: black. unless ang moh lar!
Short or long hair: Short! Can't stand guys with 5566 hairdo.

LAYER TEN: WHAT WERE YOU DOING
1 MINUTE AGO: singing along to this song on radio
1 HOUR AGO: studying journalism
5 HOURS AGO: Running!
1 WEEK AGO: On my way home from cg
1 YEAR AGO: Falling in love.

LAYER 11:FINISH THE SENTENCE

I LOVE: having friends and family around me all the time.
I FEEL: so full right now.
I HATE: having to study for this exam tmr.
I HIDE: when i see some old accquitance i don't want to make small talk with.
I MISS: all my friends in the states, and the lifestyle too.
I NEED: to go back to LA for a holiday! or maybe..back to studying for that exam tmr.

CRAP. I took 15 mins to do this silly thing. Goodness.

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Bush Sh*t! ________________________________________________________________

BUSH is really something. While his recent visit to Indonesia led many of our angsty neighbours to trottle down their streets protesting against his "Bush Shit" ( something we Singaporeans wouldn't even dare or rather bother to do), the leader took things graciously in his stride.

"People protest - that's a good sign. It's a sign of a healthy society," said Bush

Haha, i give it to him.

If we did any of this protesting - which i am sure if we did, would be rather orderly and of a worldclass standard, we'll be hearing real soon from the authorities!

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Peaceful Orgasm. ________________________________________________________________

Am i the only one who finds this global orgasm for peace thing bloody weird?

Living on their houseboat off the Marin County coast, Donna Sheehan and her partner, Paul Reffel, concocted a way for the world to communally create a lot of peaceful vibes.

They want everyone to have an orgasm on the same day.

On Dec. 22, they're asking the world to contribute to the Global Orgasm for Peace. Sheehan said not to worry if you don't have a partner.

Busy multitaskers shouldn't despair about trying to cram this global activism into their busy schedules, either, she said. Take any time during the 24-hour period at the beginning of the winter solstice to join the demonstration. Just make sure to think of peace before or after participating.

Once you've committed, there's even a secret sign to show others that you plan to take part: Flash the universal "OK" sign and wink. Or, as it has been redubbed, "The O" sign.

Great. Now i can't do my part for peace because i ain't married! How unfair is that! Haha. But oh boy, i'll definately be walking down orchard road that day, checking out the couples around me, hopefully some of them gimme an "ok" sign or send a wink. For those married, maybe you should join in and do your part. Haha. Have fun while doing good!

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Dressing to e Occasion! ________________________________________________________________

I really wonder, who comes up with the costumes for these leaders whenever they go for the APEC meetings. It's really quite ridiculous to see them clad in those traditional costumes.

If you think it's weird to see a chinese in a suit, it's like a thousand times weirder to see ang mohs in the traditional chinese costume! I mean like c'mon. Even chinese don't wear those stuff! I'm sorry, but seriously the last time i saw a man wear that thing was my grandfather in his coffin. As if having some chinese print on your shirt makes you so totally harmonious with the chinese. Blah. Where's the logic dude?

Both looking totally sharp.

Uh-huh?

Nice and happy.

Anyways, am watching Jerry Mcguire on TeeVee now. My first date movie ever, 9 years back. Wow! Sure bring back memories.

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Starbucks moment. ________________________________________________________________

It’s really just kinda weird sitting at starbucks with your brain stoned and your eyes blurred.

My laptop crashed just now, screwed up. Luckily I backed-up my photos a couple of weeks before, these sudden fatal crashes are extremely scary. You just sit here innocently doing your online readings and then suddenly that blue screen pops up telling you something is wrong with your system but they don’t exactly know what.

So here I am after four hours of online readings, feeling a little stoned out. And, I am hungry. But today I don’t feel like another one of their creamy salads or fat filled muffins. Studying here is getting kinda expensive. I’ve already had two drinks for the four hours I’ve been here. Shucks. Contemplating if I should leave my crashinglaptop here openly in this evil open society while I sneak downstairs for some yakun.

Anyway, the school holidays’ here and I see a lot of kids roaming around town. So many of them just hanging out on the streets chatting and laughing and doing silly things that youngsters do.

Christmas’ coming too! They are playing all those jazzy Christmas tunes here these days. Getting me in the mood…..mood for some toffeenut latte(another trick they use into getting people to order more drinks!) and turkey. Hah!

Alright alright, think you’ve had enough of my crap for the day. Till my next stoned out moment…adios.

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Exam's over? ________________________________________________________________

It's the exam period, so i haven't really been in the mood to blog. But after that paper on thursday, everyone seem to feel as though the exams' over. But hey, seriously, it ain't. One more paper to go on friday and then woohoo, fyp here i come. shucks.

Anyway, posted some old pictures i dug out from some time back, some random shots here and there. Haha, just in case u guys forgot how i look like!

Njoy!

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One random saturday, dearie and i made pancakes at my place. Fun and yummy. But kinda fattening too :(

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Woah. fun!

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The result of our hardwork.

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Yay pancakes pancakes.

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Couple of days before mooncake fest, dearie and i celebrated the event with some lanterns and mooncakes by my pool.

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My pretty face with the lantern

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We had some mooncakes too.

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Woohoo. sparkles!

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One fine nite, we went for the starlight cinema! The show sucked though. heh.

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That's us.

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Tackling the bottle of white!

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Our food spread: wine, subway, sushi and roast chicken!

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Wah pretty nice skyline.

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Perfect time to pour! ________________________________________________________________

Just when i finally set my heart to go running, it has to bloody rain. And i am not talking about a tiny drizzle i am talking about big fat droplets.

My wonderful sister while shifting house conveniently shifted our ONLY umbrella over to her place too. So now, i can't find an umbrella in the entire house to shelter me to the guard house to get the keys to the gym. Urghh.

I haven't ran for an entire week! How how how.

Oh yah, did i mention i had carls junior for dinner last night?

Wonderful. My diet is so damn healthy.

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With love. ________________________________________________________________

WoW! 11 months dear! This relationship is something only we can understand.
Just like the picture above.
LoveLove.

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The final prayer. ________________________________________________________________

I can't exactly remember when it started, but i know it wasn't a habit formed too long ago.

These days, whenever i read the papers nightly, i actually do glanced through the obituary section.

I used to ask my mom in the past why she does that, thinking it seemed like such a ridiculous thing to do. But tonight, i found myself starring at those lifeless pictures of those distant strangers.

But perhaps, death isn't so far away. No it's not, when you are in a ministry for the terminally ill.

Just last week, i was at a dinner party at the insitution. They were thanking the volunteers for all the work we've been putting in for their patients. A casual conversation with a fellow volunteer informed me that one of my ex-patients is going through "his last stages".

I couldn't really believe my ears. That guy, i thought, he was the uncle with the great supportive family, the high tech one who always had his laptop and handphones with him wherever he went, the one who was always so eager to talk to us when we visited, the one who's really one of the more "normal" ones!

I remember the first time i visited him. I walked into his room, he had a single ward then. On his bed, was an IBM laptop. And so i thought his kids brought it for him, but he told me it was his. Apparently, he's a pretty well off businessman who has business in many parts of asia. He uses his laptop to get work done whenever he's checked into the hospital. We went into a long discussion about the latest plasma monitor and had many equally engaging sessions after.

And then there was the the other patient. The scary looking one no one really dared get close to. For a start, he only has one eye. Yes, you heard me right. One eye. The other "eye" is pretty much just a hollow socket. He's bald too with a huge scar across his scalp thanks to a brain operation. So, when you put that face and that head together, it's pretty scary.

But somehow, we hit it off.

I remember that night i stood by his bed and he asked me: " I wonder why God still doesn't want to kill me." I was dumbfounded. I stood by his bed and ended up telling him one of my lame jokes to cheer him up instead. A few sessions after, he begin to look forward to my visits. And one night, he told me: "I am so happy when you come, because you always make me smile."

A sentence like that and it just keeps you going.

Then, i had to be transferred to care-housing because of my class schedule. And the last i heard of that scary looking uncle, he was also in his "final stages", battling lung cancer together with his already terminal disease.

Then today. I had to see that sight.

Him shivering on the bed, hovering under that thin sheet, shaking on his dirty bed. His skin was all black and flaky by now. It's been this way for weeks, but i always thought that it would get better soon, real soon. But when i saw him running a high fever, lying on that dirty bed all alone, it really pains me.

I felt so helpless, useless even. We tried to get him to go to the hospital but he just wouldn't. We tried to get him to eat something, but he just wouldn't. Eventually, he told us to leave him alone for awhile. And so we left the room, worried and dejected.

Finally, he did appear and join us all downstairs. It was then that i realised how much weight he's lost. A week and he's gone down that much. He wasn't in much of a mood to talk, he was too weak. And so i sat by his side, chiding him while he dragged on a fag with a shakey hand. Suddenly, he broke the silence. He told me how much it pains him that his kids wouldn't even bother visiting him when he's suffering through this hell alone. He's furious, yet resigned. Yet again, i fell into one of my stumped silence.

I couldn't bring myself to tell him "it's okay". I couldn't being myself to tell him "it's alright". Why? Because i'm really not sure it's okay and alright. I can't tell him that while i see his horrible skin condition and weaky spirit. 2 painkillers every 3 hours to battle off this disease. Refusing to go to the hospital because he's already lost faith in the doctors. Can i blame him?

And so i called his daughter up. All she said was "mmm, ahh...huh....ok". Perhaps that was all she could say. Betrayals and hatred, it has scarred their relationship.

I left everything behind. I went to service, i made my faith pledge, i ate a fantastically delicious dinner with my mom, sis and bro-in-law and life seems to be going on so good and normal.

But when i came home and read the papers, when i was looking through the obituary, i found my mind running. Running and thinking that one day i will see one of those faces plastered here, right at the end of their journey.

"The thing that's most important, is that we were the only ones who walked through their last days with them," my senior encouraged. "And remember, none of them left this world without first wanting to accept Jesus into their heart."

Yes, i guess that's more than enough.

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Bright yellow stalk. ________________________________________________________________

It was 3am.

I was tired out, but i had to watch that online lecture before class tomorrow.

The video was giving me a headache, it was so shakey. I took my eyes away and let it roam the room for a break.

I saw that bright yellow sunflower.

It made me smile, even at 3am when i was so so so tired.

:)

See dear, you'll never know when a flower will come in useful. Your $6 didn't go to waste. :p

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Finally, some men. ________________________________________________________________

I must confess.

I have a guilty pleasure.

One night, i was so stoned out by work, i decided to switch on the TeeVee. Was just doing the usual channel flipping when something caught my eye.

Three gorgeous looking guys on screen. Besides, they were topless.

Hah!

Channel 5 actually shows Manhunt at 3am every weekday! Goodness. How could i have missed so many episodes?!

And so, now i am catching up. Giving all my attention to these guys at 3am everynight. How pathetic.

Oh wells.

Gotta get back, they are flexing those muscles again!

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The Alienworld

Holiness redefined

Gorgeousness redefined

Pleasure redefined

Lyric of the month

Travis - Flowers in the Window

There's no reason to feel bad
But there are many reasons to feel glad, sad, mad
Its just a bunch of feelings that we have to hold
But i am here to help you with the load.

Wow look at you now
Flowers in the window
It's such a lovely day
And i am glad that you feel the same
Cause to stand up i'm in the crowd
You're one in a million
And i love you so, so lets watch the flowers grow.